and things aren't always correct if it come out from someone's mouth.
We are deceived by these people and we jus easily take in their words.
not knowing e real truth behind it....
why... cos we dun even bother to find the truth knowing it's painstaking.
but at times the truth is far more rewarding when u search for it...
Being drilled into an accounting mindset while in poly,
i just think things way tooo pessimistic rather that the good ol everything going to be fine...
i feel everything needs to be check fearin something might go wrong...
n true enough i was open to some crack in the financial work of mine...
so an advice to myself...
never fear to talk to anyone and never fear to question something even if it seems stupid to someone else...
cos it will cover my ass....
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11:12 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
Kept me from boredom,
zhao as per your request
Tag Tag Taggin Game
List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for: 1) A Bossendorfer would be great… *hmmpz bossendorfer (drool like homer)* 2) Enjoy a cup of hot chocolate while enjoying the cool breeze by the blue sea of some quiet island. 3) I could do a performance on some grand stage (need to make up for some past performance I screw up) 4) Change lives of people all around thru music (gee!!!) 5) World Peace!!! (everyone is asking for it right??)
1. The person who tags you is? Some guy name Zhao… (he’s a guy right… I heard he’s gay… wahaha)
2. Your relationship with him is: My long term fag Fren from poly (he’s gay I teelll you)
3. Your 5 impressions of him: - Studies like a nerd when exams come, slack like a jack when lecture comes - Likes the wrong gurl for all the wrong reason (wahahaha… u think so too zhao!) - great fren to have around (jokes to stories… wont dry up on you) - very filial to his gurl (whoever she is or was) (sooo unlike him at times) - He’s just plain gay, I tell you
4. The most memorable thing he had done for you? Gosh, I sooo remember clearly, almost all my r/s in poly had u as the advisor… gosh and it “sure” turn out great.
5. The most memorable words he had said to you? - “I wan to be a air steward” (wahahaha… please dun joke, please) (but if u do persist, free tix for me in the future… woohoo)
6. If he becomes your lover, you will? - He’s gay, I’m not, I’ll kill him man, him me and shawn, imagine, (taboooo!!!!)
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? - He has to differentiate when the time comes say stop to a gurl’s behaviour (serious man)
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? - Nothing, I haven been thinking of that….
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? - He was brainwashed by some freaking super super hot girl who super super hates me…
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? - Get him a girlfriend. He needs a companion, and I dun think dogs will work on him…
11. Your overall impression of him/her is? - Very very nice friend, will be there if you need him, really nice guy.
12. How do you think people around you will feel about you? - How do I know? ( Gosh how I wish I can read minds )
13. The character you love of yourself is? - Sensitive (I try to always not hurt ppl… but at times accident happen)
14. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is? - Sensitive ( I hurt ppl…. Cos I m tooo insolent with words)
15. The most ideal person you want to be is? - Quiet boy next door who plays the piano…
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them. - words can explain how grateful I am to have you guys (its all in the heart)
For people whom i've hurt: - Sorry seems to be the hardest words
For people whom i love and treasure: - Stay healthy and strong man.
17. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you. 1) SQ 2) Shawn 3) Rena 4) Aidah 5) Joy 6) Izzie 7) Huien 8) Zhao 9) Jonny 10)Zhoffry
who is no.6 having relationship with? -no one, she is randomly dating around (n fkin at times.. wahaha) Is no.9 a male or female? - male… duh If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? - god noes, maybe I shd try to matchmake them. How bout no.8 and 5? - wahahaha I knew it, zhao and joy (bestest gay story unravel if they were together) What is no.2 studying about? - he goin to study biz mgmt after NS I heard When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? - Like yesterday What kind of music band does no.8 like? - band, AEROSMITH, hmmpz nickleback, and others that I dunnoe Does no.1 has any siblings ? - Do you? Will you woo no.3 ? - gosh wad a qn!! How about no.7 ? - gosh wad another qn!! Is no.4 single ? - Well shes attached to some horse name lucky (wahaha no it’s a guy) What is the nickname of no.10? - Staff Sufyan (wahaha remember those times…) What is the hobby of no.4? - Make up… NETBALL, comp, and CAMWHORIN!!! Do no.5 and 9 get along well? - dey dun even noe one another. Where is no.2 studying at? - NS NS where can study if got NS Talk something casually about no.1? - he is a jesusfreak (which is a good thing, how I wish I was loyal to my god) Have you try developing feelings for no.8? - ZHAO!!! He’s gay… ewwww Where does no.9 live at? - Tampines What color does no.4 like? - She likes hmmp *pink??* gosh how can I not noe this Are no.5 and 1 best friends? - nope… I think they barely noe one another Does no.7 likes no.2? - oooo wad a scope if that happens How do you get to know no.2? - TEP, we slack mahjong breakdance and pageant, those were the days!! Does no.1 have any pets? - I dunnoe Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? - hmmpz lets not comment on this part cos I believe all gurls are pretty…(serious)
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5:03 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
It was minutes to dusk and we all waited with anticipation in our minds. Finally it was down to our final mission. One last mission and I could finally taste my sweet bunk once again. I could remember six days ago before we went out for our final exercise. I saw that t shirt and jeans of mine hanging by the closet. With believe that I will come back 7 days later to wear them and roam down the streets of Taiwan.
But before that reward, I must first be tested out in the jungle depths of Taiwan so ensure that all who came would return back to Singapore as Warriors. Thus we waited for our PC to announce the posting we are going to receive. Finally my PC read out the posting. “Hamza will be my runner, if he can’t continue, then I will carry the signal set for him.” With that I knew that he is going to test me. Cause of all my platoon mates, I am the only guy that is yet to be tested. My combat physique is never there, but this time, I won’t disappoint the whole platoon.
We waited for the sky to turn dark. I was sitting right next to my PC, asking his army life, sharing around life stories was what army was mainly about. The talk last for almost hours till the rain started to pour. Usually in Singapore the exercise will be place on hold, but in Taiwan, the battle has to go on. We brave the cold rainy night.
I remembered crossing streams, thick bushes, walking in the dark night, not knowing what was ahead of us. We walked by graveyards as if they were jus rocks of ornaments just beside our walkway, just to reach our location. 0215 hours, we reached our Form up point. With 3 hours to spare, we were given some resting time. We slept by the toilet but who could. Each of us were shivering for the cold cold night. Nothing to warm us up. Just our body heat. I wanted it to end badly, I wanted the sun to shine as bright as possible at that moment. But nothing came to me. I was frozen as I stood by wandering my fate. All for the nation, all for the nation.
Time came. We went for our last attack. Expended our rounds our smoke, we were physically brutal. Our anger our frustration were all displayed as we tear down the enemy base. N alast the war ended. I took the situation report from my PC and coms on the PRC 840 like a soldier whom was happy that the war ended. My PC seemed happy the whole deal was over. But codename “the bird” didn let us go easy. He declared one casualty and we have to casevack him to the golden Buddha. 8 km mind you 8 km we took turns to carry the body on the strectcher. Some of us almost gave up. It was like a war story, not the fighting part but the survival part, we were “crying” for it to end. Up the mountain down the mountain. Our mind was far exhausted, not mentioning our dead driven body. Walking and walking till someone shouted. “its there, we are almost there!!!”. The words acted like a heroin surge in our blood. We pushed our last drop of energy to the location.
There, the golden Buddha sat to welcome our return, like warrior. We cried we laugh we shouted. The feeling, only we can feel, started together, no one fall out and we ended it together, like a platoon, like a band of brothers.
Cheers Platoon 2 Charlie 42th ASLC Batch!!!
p/s: all left is the Slacker’s tribute… woohoo….
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12:57 PM
Sunday, August 19, 2007
My Dream... To own a Bosendorfer...
Never heard of this name before right...
well steinway might be a more popular brand...
but in terms of design and quality... Bosendorfer is the "Arnage" of cars...
but owing it means u have to be a millionaire *dreaming*
Exposing myself to music from Chopin..
a romantic tragedic kind of arrangement from him...
beautiful pieces...
what more can i say.
p/s: 1. Still owe Aidah the exclusive Slackers Scoop 2. Still owe my Final Attack story from Taiwan
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6:01 PM
Friday, August 17, 2007
Regimentation duties to AHM..
totally trying to ruin my Sundays...
now i cant commit my life to tryin to perfect my skills...
why cant army life be more week day thingie...
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9:12 PM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Finally i got my room to myself...
i got the great feeling man...
my bro moved out to somewhere i dun't noe
but i got the room to myself...
well too happy to blog
so freak it
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1:31 AM
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Well have been busy busy with my schedule to blog..
but here i am...
We had a great outing to causeway some time last two weeks...
Slackers again together (feat others)
we had some cam-merific times together...
and talk abt the old times...
well... miss those times...
cos now i knew that we can nvr find a group like dat ever again..
last min projects....
relyin on hajjar for the tut answers..
aidah pushing us to get the proj done n the victim of tudung jokes...
iz forever bringin sweets to class...
zhao with his forever bullies and jokes...
n we went thru projects after projects
each time creatively providing new display...
from roleplaying to flash...
i do believe that there are nvr any group better that wad we had...
so may be meet again for one more project...
on top of that i have been busy tryin to screw my piano with different melodies...
Forever love to old child classics...
and i then i saw some review sayng that lee hom's new album is more going to his chinese roots...
once again some amatuer talks...
cos after some discovery and some talking with my piano teacher..
his new album has traces of his european upbringin...
the music he plays the piano...
the tune was more of the european style...
same with david tao...
and he proved it to me... played the luo yu gui gen..
changed the song to jazz then r&b
wow... european indeed....
so all those amatuers out there...
dun jus appreciate the outside of the music..
try to understand the inside..
dun disgrace the beauty of the music played by the musician..
p/s: as per request.. next entry.. History of Slacker's Inc
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2:36 PM
; F O R E V E R C H A N G I N G ;
Hamie
a.k.a
Jacques Spilzman
19 Goin 20
7 Mar 1986
Pieces
Skiving Till OrD
Singapore
; S M I L EF O R M E ;
Surfin the Net n Online Chat
Hittin On The Guitar
Eat All Types Of Food
Tv, Movie, Trailer n such
Sleeping, Crappin, Annoying
N all Else nIce
; H A T EI T ;
HypoCritex
BackStabberx
Friends
Gays Who Love to Touch
NotHin Else At Da Moment